Seeing red..
Friday, February 12, 2010
In the school library right now with Rai.. Got to finish or start on some assignments so that my holidays will be less stressful.. And hopefully more time to catch up on sleep, family, Sadik and my friends..
Today, the student-teachers in my first year Physics class wore red, in lined with the festive season.. It was fun! Even my tutor joined in the fun.. And so after the lesson we took some pictures, before heading off to the canteen for some food.. Well, we did the traditional 'throwing of food' which I cant remember what its called now.. In my mind, all I can think about is.. 'YAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SENGG!!' hahahha.. definitely not what it was called.. But it was fun.. Since none of us bought a fish, we decided to buy fish and chips and used the fried fillet instead.. Creative huh? Haha.. But I didn't eat the thingy.. just ate fries which was on another plate.. No Halal-sign for the extra ingredients..
In class, Eunice, my physics classmate, was surfing through the net.. It made me feel so old looking at the pictures of her friends.. Many were partying or going out with their friends every weekends or going out with their boyfriends and being all carefree.. It made me feel old cause that was how we onced were.. Meeting my friends almost every day or weekends.. Not partying but hanging out and just being carefree with life.. As if there's no responsibilities, or should I say, lesser responsibilities thrown at us.. But at this age, taking time off for yourself is already a chore.. It's so hard to be able to 'enjoy life to the fullest'.. I miss my friends.. But we all got to leanr to grow up and understand that we can't be the way we used to be.. We all are either working now or completing our studies.. And as we grow older, we now feel the responsibilities and realised that we got to do our best in our studies in order to be able to secure a good job after.. This means, lesser time for enjoyment and more time for books..
And of course I feel guilty that I haven't been for my religious class for quite some time.. Shouldn't be an excuse right that I have tonnes of work to do.. But I really do.. And the fear of not completing my work, which needs to be seen the next day, is more than not being able to spend some time to learn more about Islam? That's bad.. I should really stop it and go next week and the week after and so forth.. Yes, we should strive for academics, but at the end of the day, you need to know that you need to strive for the afterlife more..
Sometimes I think about what I want in life and I thought of climbing up the career ladder and maybe be a tutor in NIE.. But the path that needs to be taken is time-consuming and lots of hard work academically.. I need to get Masters and so forth.. Work will never end cause as tutor, you are required to do research.. Then, how about my family? I know people will say that there are some others who can manage.. But at the end of the day, I'm thankful that I'm on the road of getting a degree and a good job.. And my next goal in life, is to be a great daughter, wife and mother.. Cause ultimately, that's one 'job' that gives the greatest satisfaction and blessing..
and so.. LET'S COUNTDOWN PEOPLE! WOOHOO!! 4 months!!
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